in the midst of a paintarama couple of days...just playing around with paint and seeing what happens. Ha i had a little breakthough (where is the key to denote the tone of sarcasm in ones voice??)...I introduced two new colours! Yes hello to yellow and mauvey lavender...Ha I've had this floating wish for years in my head to create paintings using this particular mauvey-lavender shade and pastely yellow together.(that's another story)
I am really enjoying that process of using other media with the paint...I've got little pots of dirt and glitter and salt and glue and wax and charcoal to play with. I used to draw like this when i was at art school, before my days of making money from my art :) ...I'm not sure what's going to happen with these today but I was having so much fun just laying down these organic, boulder, amoeba shaped forms and playing within those that I had to go a buy some more canvases to work on, not being patient enough to wait for the paint to dry and keep working on the ones i already had.
I might work on doing some crazy expressive drawings today and see if can incorporate elements of these, but then again something else might happen. Hmmm!
Oh the fun to be had :D
Hope you have a wonderfully blissful creative weekend!

Dollies to abstract

 

Ideas on the shift from creating dolly works to abstracted pieces...i really thinkg it is about acceptance..of myself and others...and being brave to explore what you really want to do...brave to embrace the subtleties. not having to be 'in your face' accepting the quiet and visual. I love subtle work .I wish I was brave enough to embrace my own urges to create it and create it. From now on i will!!!

 

pretty mess.
the fabric en of the room is being negletcted at ehmoment. i know that when i get inoto something good witll come of it. merging the paerper and paint and fabric.
i recall feelling ggoood aboaut making dolls. it being a great vehickle of self expression combinging the drawing and fabirc aspacts of my love. my little mermaids were my faves...most expressive. l;ess scared thant the others. i don;t want ot feel scared. i keep imagining the is team fo judges on flickr not so scary but still critecs that i have ot gaing approval of. sillly silly i know but still they ar my customers. a japanes aestheric becouse i loved it its cute. but i need to embrace that and still free itu up a little . there are artists that i adore that do thsi and i will research and list them later with links. gosh i lov ehtis blogging thang!!
but agoin aboaut fabrci i have so much of it and so much of it i am precious about ie i don't want ot use it to sell it i dont know what i shoul do withit them. i am going to start decorating my home with it. any thath i dont wnat to live with make into cushions and curtains to sell rather than paint on them.
that's another story ...thats a littel bread and butter story.
though i do love lvoe the idea of using more fabric in my home and i am excited by usnig fabric with light.

FABRIC
LIGHT
MOVEMENT

these three elements are something that makes me feel breathlessly excited by the potential beauty.
That feeling of having a sheet thrown over you the little breeze that swishes across your skin. the light that shimmers ahdn moves the floating flotating floating then still still

still

Being inside sheets hanging onthe clothes line having them blow in the breeze aroun you walking throughthem like a labyrinth tall toweres of woven light and motion

i want ot create something closer to music someting like dance; movement and ligtht

silent but musical magical dreamy misty floaty wierd but lovely divine even

if this means little tiny petals or leaves each day little snippets rather thatn a big grand project
leave that till it happens

For now document, journal , note seek these moments that reflect what you want ot express

thinking this makes want ot forget painting even. Haha
am i lookin for something bigger and floatier something lighter and lovelier than a painting

paintings that are not self contained pictures aththat are unfinished left with out explanation with
expecrtation of something more someting still to be done

Somehting still to be done

a littel journey a wlittle workd or letter here or there
aagh like your little mirror journey that was beautiful that was motion and journeying and light and movement it was little storiesand it began with someting simple ...a mirror a candle and picture of me...
it become something magic.

oh the floating pillows...so simple so so divine...

how i wouldlove the oppurtunity ot explore this on a grand scale...ephemara?
has anyone else done washing on the line??? sheets hanging old sheets long long lines of the for youto walk through
maybe something to discover a little word or symbol story or maybe just to enjoy thelight and hte breeze.
magnetic festival even but i would have ot make it cutesy there!eeusw just wati and see!!

photography that leads me to the dreaminess of photos that i love i love dreamy photos
i want ot take more of those

ddreamDREAMY PHOTOS DREAMPY PHTOOS DREAMYPHOTOS DREAMY PHOTOS

 

i like these pretty things. i love lovel love little random colleciton like this and i love text. visual poetry

VISUAL POETRY

subtle
spare
delicate
soft
flimsy
tentative
light

12thmay

 

sorting through the chaos that s what the journalling will hopefully hjelp to do sort the cahoas of my brain.
and thoughts and feelings. get tehm flowing onto paint and canvas. iwant to have and exhibition of canvases i'm scared.I want a strong body of pictures. paintings whatever the y turn out ot be. I will buy some canvases and work .work them as a body. Oh how delicious. jus thinking abiout it make s me so excited being surrounded bye the pieces and working on them lookin at them pushing them seeing how the relaete to each other. having space to work to make a mess paint and paper everywhreraaaaa uumym ym ym yumyumyummmm. tjhen having and exhibition adn they all sell and then i sell the prints and then i get cards done and walla i have laittle income.
oh thge deremmmdream dream deream dream.........

it feewl really self indulgent and selfish like how can i take the time to do that without an income. maybe i should get a little job whre i bring in a littl emoney. Muy market. Market markt My job is my market. don't stresa bout etsy. it's pushing your creataive nrg into a place tatht maybe it shougldnt be...I AM NOT A PROCUTION FACTORY :)........I AM NOT A crafter. I AM AN ARTIST. I WILL SELL MY ART NOT MY CRAFT!

11th may 2009

 

dedided to start journalling more. I need it!! right now anyway. to move to a more creative place where i am game enough to express something more. To get some paint moving and glue spilt. I'd like to work with watery paints.
This will be bery much streamof consciousness and not much editing. Just for me. to get things growing.na little garden of creataivity.yay,,....

did this crazy cover picking things up off my floor and wherever randomly sticking quickly following my eye and instinct. it's made it much sturdier which was the main intention. it was flimsy before that.
I wll journal here and journal there as this process of tyoping is fun and expressive it's so quick comoare to hand writing. lot soof spelling mistakes!!

I like words...........

Words are pretty........

one issue im workin on is making "pretty pictures" I really want ot paint and make pictures. But whenever I paint i get paranoid and stuck aobut it not being 'Art" enough...it just being a 'pretty picture' I feel that my work too much latelly had been just tha tjust prety. a little pathos bvut it neeeds more more more. need to give more

NOTE; BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO CREATE SOME CRAP!!

14th may